at a loss …
what did i do to deserve this kind of punishment?
was not a killer
was not a whore
was not a thief
was a little too much but
was not over board
now my life’s a mess
a shitty stinky pile of mess
my dad is jobless
our house got robbed
i have not yet enrolled this semester
and i don’t know what to do
i feel so lost, i feel like crying over and over again
‘till i start crying wells of blood
but it just won’t happen.
and it feels like no matter how many times i ask for help
and forgiveness (even though i have not done such awful things i still did so)
yet nothing has been done
my pleas have not been heeded
so now… WHAT? TT
